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Never Settle

I wrote this blog 6 months ago...

I remember when I started going to the church consistently, there were still some things in my life that I haven’t fully surrendered to God. I would go to church on Sundays, sometimes even for 2-3 services and occasionally on a Tuesday Prayer Meeting. The rest of the week would look completely different. I was still very much caught up with a worldly life style. My Friday nights were occupied with the hottest night clubs and I was emotional unhealthy and longing to be in a relationship. During the week I was chasing an empty dream of becoming the next Victoria’s Secrets Model. My mind flooded with a bunch of lies and insecurities, I just cruised through my days. 

Until one day I had enough! I remember, as if it was yesterday. On October 31st in 2007, I was dressed as Pocahontas (looking crazy) and heading downtown Manhattan to go to one of the many Halloween parties. It started out as any usually night club party. Wild dancing, drinking and everyone having a “good” time.  As I’m standing in the midst of it all, I began to feel uncomfortable. I started to see everything with different eyes. All of sudden I saw a sad picture of drugged people, drunkenness, adultery, lust and immortality. Then I heard a gentle whisper saying: “You don’t belong here. You have to leave." I felt a tug in my heart and knew right a way that was the Holy Spirit guiding me. I knew at that moment that I have been settling for a life that was not destined for me. God had a different plan for me. I looked at my friends and said I have to go, and they said they knew it was coming. I hopped in a cab and never set foot in another night club again. 

It was at that moment when I realized I have to give it all to Jesus. He doesn’t want me to settle for a meaningless life. God has a purpose for me and He wanted me to get there. I chose that day to never settle again and to fix my eyes on what is true, honorable, right, lovely, and admirable. And think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. I eventually retired from modeling, focused on getting financially stable, volunteered at the church, went on mission trips and so on. And as most of you know, today I’m married to my amazing God-fearing husband Pastor Todd Crews and I’m a proud mommy to our two wonderful children, Canaan and Zoe
I had the pleasure and honor to work in full-time ministry. I devoted my life fully to Jesus. I was made to be God’s extended hands to help people come to know Jesus Christ. What if I would have never listened to that gentle whisper and continued partying. I would have missed out on a joy filled life. I encourage you to be alert and listen to the voice of God. He is speaking and we have to make ourselves available to Him. Never settle for a meaningless life. God has way to much in store for you. Try Him, I guarantee you that you will not regret it. Thank you.


Love,
Nicole Crews

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