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New Beginnings (after my miscarriage)

It's been a while since I wrote a blog. The last post was by far one of the most emotional experiences we have ever faced. But as most of you know a lot has changed since then. 

I must admit after the miscarriage I was told to take it easy and wait for 3 months until my body heals. It seemed as though I bounced right back and I felt good to go right away. Ministry kept me very busy, we went on a vacation, caught up with friends and TTC (tried to conceive). 

To our surprised exactly at 3 months we were pregnant again. It was exciting yet frightening at the same time. I chose to trust God and started my new beginning.
 
There was one specific incidence at about 7 weeks of pregnancy. Leading up to it, I had all the typical symptoms of a preggo. Nausea, soreness, being tired and many bathroom runs. Right around thanksgiving it seemed as though the symptoms were gone. All of my alerts went of and I begin to panic. I thought to myself, no not again, I can't have another miscarriage. We went to the doctor to get checked and their Sono machine wasn't in the best condition. They could not find anything and said they couldn't rule out a miscarriage. That was not what I wanted to hear. So I had to wait 2 looooong days to go to a sonogram specialist. You can imagine what an emotional mess I was. Thank God for the good news and I received one of the best confirmation ever. 

The day before the appointment Ramona one of my coworkers noticed I wasn't feeling well. She ask Dorothea one of our prayer warriors to join her to pray for me in one of the offices. That moment I will never forget. God met us and gave me a promise. FEAR NOT FOR I AM WITH YOU, YOU WILL CARRY THIS SEED. Hallelujah. Anytime something came up? I recited the promise over and over again. Also at that time "God is able" from Smokie Norful became my song. 

To fast forward, I had an amazing pregnancy and were able to function well, up until the last 2 weeks before giving birth. Thank God I was capable to work and support my husband during the entire pregnancy. Another surprise struck us when Canaan our sweet little boy decided to come 6 weeks early. I will share my birth experience in a later post. 

Looking back I cannot help but to praise God. His timing is always perfect. My husband once shared: "To be early is to be on time, to be on time is to be late and to be late you will be left behind." Canaan and God knew early is right on time. The same goes for the timing to conceive after our loss. I have learned so much in the process and wouldn't want to change anything about it. We have grown as individuals, shed tears, laughed, gotten so much closer and stronger as a couple. No matter what you go through, God can and will use it for His glory. It is a privilege and honor to live the life that God has laid out for us. 

To see more about our new beginnings click on this link: http://nicoletoddbaby.ourbabychannel.com

Live, love and laugh 
Nicole Crews
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