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My Anxious Part

If you are dealing with anxiety or know of someone that does, I encourage you to read this exercises I did when I discovered about my challenges with anxiety. After seeking professional counseling we discovered that I have dealt with an over-functioning anxiety that was well blended into my every being and daily actions. Most of it stems from my upbringing and what I have been exposed to. When I’m surrounded by chaos my anxiety kicks in and wants to take control and bring order into the situation. I'm so grateful today that i have discovered the root of the issue and have proper tools to address it when it comes up. Be encouraged, there is hope. 

My anxious part

Dear anxious part of me how are you? We have been blended for way too long. Although you are not bad, I do need proper space between our dealings. You have helped me in a very traumatic situation and many that followed. I’m grateful for that, but now you have over functioned in my life that leads to an unhealthy mindset. See the day I have given my life to Jesus I have received the mind of Christ. At times I couldn’t focus clearly because I was flooded with fears over the chaos in my life. Yes there are times it can be stressful, but we can have a different approach about it. I would like to suggest that from this day forward you can operate in raising concerns and caution to the decisions we have to make in life or bring attention where we may fall into a trap. But what I can no longer tolerate is to be gripped with fear and in the process hurt those I love. So can we partner in balance and in a healthy way? From here on out when you tend to go passed your boundaries and push the limits I will firmly notify you to step back and give me room to think clearly from my inner self. It is beneficial that I do it this way, because it will help me treat others with respect and see things in a truthful way. I understand you like to keep things in order, but it’s not your job. We serve a mighty God who keeps things in order and He doesn’t give us anything we can’t bare. So today I will choose to calm down and still give you an ear, but not allow you to swallow me completely with anxiety. Thank you for understanding and I look forward to a healthier way of approaching life. 

Blessings,
Nicole (the inner true self) 


By God’s grace He is helping me to face my fears with confidence and faith. As I seek my savior Jesus He renews my mind daily and give me peace that surpasses all understanding. I’m standing in the gap with you and keeping you in my prayers. We are in this together.

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