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Dear healthy part of me,  how are you? I have been getting to know you and you give me such a great perspective on how to live my life effectively. It's been such a delight to discover peace and joy with you. You are teaching me to slow down in life and pay attention to my surroundings. You help me be present with those I value the most. You give me the confidence to say no when something comes my way that is not meant for me to do. You help me choose to be present over perfect. You help me sit at the feet off Jesus and embrace the process of healing. It's so wonderful to experience what health feels like. I don't regret what I have been through, because it makes it so much sweeter to experience your health. I have a story to tell and with your insight, I can help others through my transformation. God wants us to be emotionally healthy so that we can function properly in life and be His servant. God wants to use us to help others find Him. Through my growing healthy vi

If you are dealing with anxiety or know of someone that does, I encourage you to read this exercises I did when I discovered about my challenges with anxiety. After seeking professional counseling we discovered that I have dealt with an over-functioning anxiety that was well blended into my every being and daily actions. Most of it stems from my upbringing and what I have been exposed to. When I’m surrounded by chaos my anxiety kicks in and wants to take control and bring order into the situation. I'm so grateful today that i have discovered the root of the issue and have proper tools to address it when it comes up. Be encouraged, there is hope.  My anxious part Dear anxious part of me how are you? We have been blended for way too long. Although you are not bad, I do need proper space between our dealings. You have helped me in a very traumatic situation and many that followed. I’m grateful for that, but now you have over functioned in my life that leads to an unhealthy mi

Embrace this wonderful journey called life, weather in absolute chaos or in harmony, there are many beautiful lessons to learn and grow from.  Yesterday was challenging. As a parent, don't you love it when one of your children wakes you up in the morning? Clearly I was not ready for the day, but hey what do you do? You just tell your son to go out to the living room and read a book, mommy will be right out 🤓 .  As the day went on I noticed my patience level was below zero. My poor hubby began to walk on egg shells. My hormones were out of whack and I had lots of things to do to reset our home. I'm trying to be all efficient, but when you have kids things can quickly get out of hand. You clean up one area, then you turn around and the other area that you just cleaned up is a mess again. Thankfully I have the best husband in the world, who took the kids out for breakfast so I could focus on the home. Time flew and I tried to accomplish a lot in a short amount of ti

I found myself desiring a sleep retreat. Having kids you realize quickly that sleep becomes luxury. I also kept saying if only I had time to deep clean my home, oh how nice would it be to have it all in order. Then my mind kept wandering and over the holidays I treated myself with way to many desserts and delicious meals that I added some unwanted pounds. On top of it we are in a very conscious financial season and need to cut some cost to maintain a healthy budget. All of these thoughts became my prayers to God and oh did all of them come true, but not in the package I expect it.   We had an intense round of sickness for a month. Between joint pains, back pains, flu and stomach bugs, we just got hit with one thing after another and took turns amongst us four. But in it all God was with us. Thank you Lord. I learned many valuable lessons. While we were sick, we received opportunities to rest and catch up on sleep. When Todd was sick I deep cleaned our home. Through having the stomach

I wrote this blog 6 months ago... I remember when I started going to the church consistently, there were still some things in my life that I haven’t fully surrendered to God. I would go to church on Sundays, sometimes even for 2-3 services and occasionally on a Tuesday Prayer Meeting. The rest of the week would look completely different. I was still very much caught up with a worldly life style. My Friday nights were occupied with the hottest night clubs and I was emotional unhealthy and longing to be in a relationship. During the week I was chasing an empty dream of becoming the next Victoria’s Secrets Model. My mind flooded with a bunch of lies and insecurities, I just cruised through my days.  Until one day I had enough! I remember, as if it was yesterday. On October 31st in 2007 , I was dressed as Pocahontas (looking crazy) and heading downtown Manhattan to go to one of the many Halloween parties. It started out as any usually night club party. Wild dancing, drinking and e

Zoe's birth experience  Who would have thought, that the day I wrote a blog after almost 1 1/2 years, Zoe would make her debut.  What started to be a regular Monday in the Crews' home, soon changed.  Zoe arrived on Monday, Feb. 9th at 3:02pm with 8 lbs 2 oz and 21 inches tall!!!!!!!  Thankfully Canaan slept until 7:15am that morning. God knew we needed the extra rest. He usually is a super early bird and wakes up around 6am. Every Monday my  amazing husband Todd is off from work and does the 1st 2 1/2 hrs morning shift with our son.  I was relaxing and doing my devotions (reading my bible) until 9:50am.  Then Canaan and I hung out for the following 2 1/2 hrs, to give daddy some deserved "me time".  It was time for Canaan's nap and he usually goes down pretty smoothly. Not this day. He fought his nap for 30 min with loud screaming. 0_o!!!!!!! Thankfully he finally went to sleep after.  When Todd came back, we talked and searched for a car online and even joked abou